Inner fulfilment ((:

Hare Krishna, Hare Krishna,

Krishna Krishna Hare Hare

Hare Rama Hare Rama

Rama Rama Hare Hare


Waterfalls in Ithaca, NY (:

Waterfalls in Ithaca, NY (:


Dopapod and I at CATSKILL CHILL 2012 (: love these boys…

Dopapod and I at CATSKILL CHILL 2012 (: love these boys…


Cathedral of Learning in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania…shot in HDR with a Nikon D90. 

Cathedral of Learning in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania…shot in HDR with a Nikon D90. 


Lysergic Acid Revelation #1

If you have expectations of people, expect them to hold you to their own expectations. If you can’t handle that, then don’t expect. Live with the uncertainty and unpredictability of the people around you. The lack of equilibrium and compromise leads to unstable, tense relationships between human beings. We need to be aware, we need to communicate, and if we do choose to hold expectations, we must be sure they are reasonable. If the expectation is not met, educate and don’t criticize. Defensiveness leads to wallowing which leads to spiritual and personal stagnancy. Trust those around you and believe they are trying their hardest. Allow them to learn from mistakes, and with time people will be able to feel comfortable and open, and with time expectation will no longer be necessary. 


Psilocybin Revelation #2

Sometimes I feel a bit badly for my brain- the changes, epiphanies, thoughts and ideas I bombard it with on a daily basis can get intense. I don’t regret it, though. I don’t think you ever stop learning, be it from trips or life in general. Life is one huge lesson, one exam, one challenge. A classroom. Tripping is quite literally a field trip out of the classroom into the wilderness that we as humans study…and since when do field trips ever get old? The more you travel, the more you learn. Will be I tripping more in the future? Absolutely, and I know with such certainty that I am prepared for it.

This experience was a different sort of beast. A more introspective beast, a creature that may very well be a product of my own imagination as opposed to any external chemicals I placed into my body. After ingesting some psilocybin last night, albeit some very abused, heat smitten psilocybin, I hung out with the college student fray, until I realized a couple things- firstly, how very out of place and antsy I felt, but more importantly, I Realized My Body. Unconsciously, I was sitting on a couch and moving my hands into contortions I didn’t even realize possible. The same waves of energy I felt pulsating from my body and my environment through my acid trip were revealing themselves to me once more. If I had to describe it visually, I imagine this “presence” to be an electric blue substance that permeates everything- your organs, your skin, your soul, your environment and the people around you. Coming from an amateur pantheist background, I feel as though I’m finally beginning to understand the inner workings of “us”, the collective universe. This energy is NOT an illusion caused by drugs, it is a very real entity. It is us.

And here I was, being ogled by confused 21 year old computer science majors as I felt my hands weave in and out of this substance. I had to leave. I bee lined to my room, turned the lights off, invited Skrillex over to my ear canals and felt an enormous rebirth and rediscovery begin. It started in my shoulders and shoulder blades- for the first time in my conscious memory, I could feel every tendon and muscle within them. I had complete control over my shoulders, and I, in amazement, watched myself move them with delicate, intricate precision. One small portion of my body was able to move in a myriad of ways I hadn’t thought possible. I grew wings, and they too were filled with this insane blue energy. I chose Skrillex because I believe electronic music taps into the nervous system. This music was literally created to make your body dance, to throw yourself into beats that are primal and animalistic. It allows you to surrender your ego and notions of reality. Within these few hours, I became a creature of nothing more than sensuality and “now”ness. I ended up ripping my clothes off, and the body expedition moved to my abdomen—I had a little taste of how belly dancers are able to move with such detail and precision. My muscles literally were rippling with life, brimming with electricity. The blind fold was off- after years of clumsiness, of being told I was “ungraceful” and tasteless, I finally was able to fly.

Slowly, I discovered every facet of every muscle in my body. I was a contortionist, I was a monster, I was a dancer. Hell, I was sexy. Such irony that no one was around to see it, no one but myself. And that’s exactly the experience I needed to have. To know I could do this on my own, to do this by myself, without the worlds eye watching me…yet.

Three hours later, I emerged from my lair a newly hatched beast, with new powers I never thought I could ever wield. I have so much more to explore, and I’m infinitely curious whether this trip was truly a shroom trip or my own will power and focus. I wonder if my brain chemistry has truly altered future shroom trips due to my LSD trip, and any other future trips. I opened the door, managed to step through it, but there is so much left to learn. 

I have so much more to write concerning this experience, but I’ll leave it at this for now.


Q
Dude! I was chatting with you at the Yeasayer show last night. I can't believe you met them! I'm jealous!
A

Dude, hit me up on facebook! eliana rampage frim, that’s so funny, so glad you found me! 


Chilled with Yeasayer after their show in Syracuse at the Westcott theatre last night! This is me with their new drummer, Kel…he’s awesome! 

Chilled with Yeasayer after their show in Syracuse at the Westcott theatre last night! This is me with their new drummer, Kel…he’s awesome! 


I am a bird! because….facepaint is fun.

I am a bird! because….facepaint is fun.